The Vortex

Here we are in the midst of the coronavirus that's taken over the world. I cannot honestly say how any of us are... yesterday I was really down and confused. Today the sun is out so it's a whole new outlook.

Some people say God took away everything we idolize. Yes, but why take away church? The way we get people to Him. It does make us focus on only the things that matter. Heck, He shut down the salons so a woman's beauty maintenance is even taken away! Joke's on everyone else that my hair girl comes to my house ha... seriously though, we are forced by the exterior world to be inside (or in our yards) with our family. Everything else is stripped away. For me, I'm a very social person so it's hard to take away those friendships where I see people. I like to shop and just browse the aisles. I love to go to the gym. I like to randomly stop in a store and grab a little snack. It's those weird little things that you seem to notice as well.

I honestly forget that Nick is laid off at this time. It's like we're all in this weird vortex that I cannot even see past all of this. I have this weird faith that he will find what he needs after all of this is over. I don't fret over it as much. I've been doing so much of my own work that I forget to bask in the stress of it all. I can freak out if I sit and worry and wonder what's next. I just cannot do that.

I'm not great at homeschooling Walker... not sure if a 4 year old counts as homeschool, but there's a lot of little academics!!! He plays most of the time so I believe play is where he learns. We do take time out to do all of our little activities. But, I don't know if I'm near as great as some moms! I just try to make it as fun as possible for him. We learn, but he doesn't know it's learning at times! We spell things that are in the room... count things... draw things. We let Carter in to sing and dance with us. It's actually good time with the kids.

So here we are. Some days good. Some days stressful. I'm ready to be normal again.