Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Dive In

They say marriage is called taking the dive. I can see it. It feels as if you are on this high dive and everyone is swimming below. They want you to join, but taking the dive is scary. The waters are unknown. Will people treat me differently? Will I be a good swimmer? What if I fall really hard and the water knocks the breath out of me? I simply don't like change. It's just that. I know happiness scares me. When I am on top of the world, I am scared to death because what happens when something bad happens. What if when you are happy, bad things happen to you? It's so funny to me. I battle with myself to just let myself have fun, don't worry about those bad things. They will happen sometime. Just enjoy it! You see, we have three wedding showers in a row, and there are so many people showering us with love. I am just in awe they would love us that much. I have to just chill out and enjoy it! I guess we all train ourselves to be humble, but we must realize love is okay! We can feel loved and it's just amazing. I remember when I first got out of college and was reporting in Abilene. I remember just loving the new job and the new life journey and then I was paralyzed with fear at my happiness. I wasn't sure if it was okay to feel happy. Then I decided it just was, and yes, bad things do happen and did happen over the years, but it's just a battle we probably all fight within ourselves. Just love it and enjoy it. I am loving being engaged and I do look forward to jumping off that high dive. In my mind, Nick and I have been married for years. We've gone through many things and held on and just shared life together. We always say the wedding is a show and the marriage is the serious part. We will be living together when married so, yes, that changes, but our core does not. We have the same base and we are the same people... diving in! 

These are pictures from our first shower - A Couples Shower hosted by the Teter and Bennett family at the Teters. Dad and Brenda even flew in! We had such a wonderful time. We got some great gifts, too, including a Dyson and a hammock! We were truly surrounded by love. Off to Big Spring for another shower this weekend! Yay!!!

Jim and the Bennetts

Nick and his godfather
Kristy, Karen, Jules

Nick, Libby, Justin, Jenna

Dad & Granny

Jenna, Libby, Julie & Brenda

Erichson, Karen, Julie, Cody, Kristy

Dad & Brenda

Ready for the pinata

Cody & Julie

Nick & Me


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