I’m annoyed that at one time I thought Lindsay Lohan was going to be special.
The river trip is in two days and I am getting so excited. I have now bought two new swimsuits. I don’t know why. I have a million. There are about thirty of us staying in one huge home on the river. And I get to see Tiffy! Her baby shower is right there in
The doctor had this bright thought to help my anxiety levels I should take sleeping medication. I am not a psychiatrist, but with my battles all of my life obsessing over weight and worry and even gum… seems a bit of an addictive personality to me. I accept it. He says the lack of sleep could be effecting my serotonin levels thus effecting my anxiety levels I don’t remember sleeping a whole night in years and years. I did take the pills the last two nights and truthfully I don’t enjoy them. So happy to say I won’t be getting addicted anytime soon. It’s so embarrassing to tell people about my anxiety that I do not know! “Hello, I am a bit crazy.” I believe it is just a part of me and really there is no cure. Nick explains it as I had a horrid thing happen in my life when I lost my mother. It flipped everything upside down and when a great fear like that actually happens you have to face it and just live with it. That must mean living with the anxiety of wondering if everything bad will happen to you from then on?
Speaking of… Dad and Brenda have been on the cruise now for a few days. They called this morning from
In other news… I told everyone at lunch yesterday I had the wisdom to carry with them the rest of their lives. I told them they need to treat everyone like they are talking to God. They thought I was crazy. I meant… by always being yourself and down to earth and gracious. Ahhhh if one could only live in my head for a day they’d learn great things!