The weekend was full of laughter. It was also full of tears. I had such a wonderful time in Midland visiting the family. Steven, Ashley and Rylie were already there so I got in late Friday. We just hung out and had ice cream. Dad and Brenda had the guest bathroom redone and it is gorgeous! I felt like I was in a mansion taking a shower. Dad got his new teeth! His grill is awesome! They hurt a lot right now, but his smile is amazing.
Saturday we all hung out in the morning playing with Rylie then we went bowling! Such a blast. I actually hit a few strikes as well! We had such a nice time laughing and bowling. Brenda brought her own bowling ball. She is a certified bowling nerd. That night we watched "Definitely, maybe" and ate quesadillas. The movie brought too many emotions to the surface after my emotional week dealing with both Nick and Jessica losing loved ones. I sat outside on the swing and cried for a bit. We were all not ready to leave Sunday morning, but we all had long treks back to our real worlds. Steven and Ashley left at 6 AM. I am never awake that early. It was absolutely peaceful outside with the stars and the morning air. It is always hard to leave home. It is so very peaceful to be there feeling wrapped in a blanket. I understand we are too old to stay wrapped in our bedrooms at home, but in those moments it feels so easy and so secure.
I went to Nick's when I got back in town. It was a rough night. We looked at pictures of his grandfather and cried together. It was all too raw as I took off my mask and let myself truly feel everything I have been through since Mom passed away. It is going to take a long time. Each day a battle. Each day a victory. One day at a time.